An experience never will forget

so it was the time when i hate to be studying, exam time
this time
it sucked a lot more than those before
the exams are held weeks before chinese new year
bummer !!!!
and here i was...
enjoying the new year and call (2009)
enjoying my changed life
only to be brought down by these "inescapable" days of student life
yeah me.... and those studying in the same college as i

so this week was all about study, prepare, sitting for exam week
so much "fun"....
me and a few close friends were like nomads
changing location to study
looking for people smarter, more well equipped to teach us
via calling, msn, sms....
anything to get a hold on info, answers and solutions
it was all niter until early in the morning everyday...
haiz... sien...
the first paper is like 3 feet under...
the second was better... more confident in it...

ermm...
over the time i studied
i did pray for being able to absorb info faster
which was answered... much to my relief
i can feel myself understand things easily... easier..
and at times when i needed small help... i feel Him there...

on Friday
i went to my church to join a few close friends
we came together to wash each others' feet
as Christ did for his disciples
he served them by washing their feet as a symbol of cleansing them of their sins
we did what He did with the same motifs
to learn to be humble
to learn to serve others
to learn to love one another
to learn that we are all the same
to know that we are brothers and sisters
before going there
i was like... this is going to be a fun experience
as we read through the bible
i began to take it seriously
and began to become a little emo
then Ron clarified somethings
and we began

i was really emotional
both mentally and spiritually
as i see my seniors
on their knees washing my feet
praying for me
i cannot describe how i felt
it was peaceful, yet... touching
it was... humbling... yet honoured
as it goes on... i wept..
it felt so GREAT
when it was my turn
i was afraid that i will say the wrong things
or did say what i really wanted to
that my prayer will go wrong (something i'm still working on)
but when i knelt and wash their feet and pray for them
the words came out exactly as i wanted
i felt the Holy Spirit guiding me
being with me
it was humbling... it was peaceful... it was joyful
it was... in one word... AWESOME

then i got the message from Him
that all my life
i had my own values in everything
my way of doing things
my ways of understanding thing
and i realised...
most of it are written in the bible.
(well other than those sinful things, which i'm doing all i can to avoid now)
i was right where i belong
i was home


after that...
i was full of energy
could not stop smiling
when i joined my friends to study that night
they said i was glowing

this is such a nice experience
it was really emotional, humbling
yet honored, graceful, joyful at the same time
after that
i really forgot what everyone said
all i know is...
it was SO GREAT !!!!!
this is an experience i would not forget for the rest of my life
and if God's willing
i would like to do this again...