miracles during exams

well today is the last day of exams prior chinese new year

in a way 

i feel that exam i totaly over...

slacking already...?

well i'm not the kind of person that study often

as if in

"only study when you absolutely have to"

not a moto

however

when it comes to the time when "really have to"

man...

it is a pain in the butt....

but... this time it is a lot different

everytime before starting a day

even before starting studying and doing revisions

i would pray

and studying will proceed easily

as if in can finish in time

don't get drozy at all

when i came to exam day

i would pray before doing anything

before steeping into exam hall

before reading the question

during reading the questions

and during answering

calmness seemed to overwhelm me

i didnt even felt nervous

COOL HUH?

well

today a miracle actually happen

just like ronald said

i manage to answer some questions

up until the final question and final 5 minutes

when i desperate for the answer

a voice literally told me the answer

and i know it wasnt me 

cause i didnt do revision on that question

the only time i heard about it was... 4 months ago

in lecture

so... COOL

GOD GAVE ME THE ANSWER I NEEDED !!!

CRESCENDO

Each and every second, you're so lovely...
The beats of my heart keeps resounding...
As we walk together on the way back we sink into silence
Clumsily, these feelings that I cannot convey

Walking quickly through the four seasons that move quickly,
In whatever scene, I want to see you right by my side.
Humming a favorite phrase of mine,
'if it's you, no matter what the sound,
You'll be able to play it, right?'

Each and every second,
I want to burn you into my memory.
Your pouts, your smiles, everything that paints you who you are,
everything is now dancing with the wind,
gently enveloped by the wind.

Your words made my eyes shine,
The story of our dreams that we paint knows no bounds.
At that time, you casually gave me, who was lost,
a push on the back, didn't you.

You, who is living 100% in the present,
you twinkle brighter than anyone, just like the Sun.
The miracle of meeting someone
I want to know you even deeper, even if I get hurt

Each and every second, you're so lovely...
The beats of my heart keeps resounding...
I vow to become strong someday...
So I can spread my wings...
To always look over you...
more than everyone else...

An experience never will forget

so it was the time when i hate to be studying, exam time
this time
it sucked a lot more than those before
the exams are held weeks before chinese new year
bummer !!!!
and here i was...
enjoying the new year and call (2009)
enjoying my changed life
only to be brought down by these "inescapable" days of student life
yeah me.... and those studying in the same college as i

so this week was all about study, prepare, sitting for exam week
so much "fun"....
me and a few close friends were like nomads
changing location to study
looking for people smarter, more well equipped to teach us
via calling, msn, sms....
anything to get a hold on info, answers and solutions
it was all niter until early in the morning everyday...
haiz... sien...
the first paper is like 3 feet under...
the second was better... more confident in it...

ermm...
over the time i studied
i did pray for being able to absorb info faster
which was answered... much to my relief
i can feel myself understand things easily... easier..
and at times when i needed small help... i feel Him there...

on Friday
i went to my church to join a few close friends
we came together to wash each others' feet
as Christ did for his disciples
he served them by washing their feet as a symbol of cleansing them of their sins
we did what He did with the same motifs
to learn to be humble
to learn to serve others
to learn to love one another
to learn that we are all the same
to know that we are brothers and sisters
before going there
i was like... this is going to be a fun experience
as we read through the bible
i began to take it seriously
and began to become a little emo
then Ron clarified somethings
and we began

i was really emotional
both mentally and spiritually
as i see my seniors
on their knees washing my feet
praying for me
i cannot describe how i felt
it was peaceful, yet... touching
it was... humbling... yet honoured
as it goes on... i wept..
it felt so GREAT
when it was my turn
i was afraid that i will say the wrong things
or did say what i really wanted to
that my prayer will go wrong (something i'm still working on)
but when i knelt and wash their feet and pray for them
the words came out exactly as i wanted
i felt the Holy Spirit guiding me
being with me
it was humbling... it was peaceful... it was joyful
it was... in one word... AWESOME

then i got the message from Him
that all my life
i had my own values in everything
my way of doing things
my ways of understanding thing
and i realised...
most of it are written in the bible.
(well other than those sinful things, which i'm doing all i can to avoid now)
i was right where i belong
i was home


after that...
i was full of energy
could not stop smiling
when i joined my friends to study that night
they said i was glowing

this is such a nice experience
it was really emotional, humbling
yet honored, graceful, joyful at the same time
after that
i really forgot what everyone said
all i know is...
it was SO GREAT !!!!!
this is an experience i would not forget for the rest of my life
and if God's willing
i would like to do this again...

Splendid Sunday

such a splendid Sunday i had today
so spiritual, so relaxing, so joyful
filled with encouragement, experience and knowledge

in the morning
i join a few friends in solitude
i was held at the beach early in the morning
i was hoping to see the sun rise though :p
but what i got instead is so much more

we splited up so that we can be alone
to concentrate and not distracted by anything or anyone
just being there to feel, listen or see to what the Lord have install for us
after a few moments of prayer i was ready to hear and see

at first it was nothing that come to mind
so i walk a bit more
changing view, changing location
this first significant sign i saw was a bigger bird attacking a smaller one
i see them struggling
and i feel for the smaller one
but in the end
the smaller one manage to escape from the bigger one
and the bigger didn't give chance and let it go
to me...
the massage that i got was
"there will be bigger dangers or challenge that we are going to face in life
it might come to us or we will find them
but if we have faith
no matter how big the problem is
we will make it and rise above"

then in a while
i didn't see anything
so i sat down looking at the waves
and i related the waves to myself
the waves were rough at first
just like my life was
then it became calm, slow
just like my life is peaceful now
but then... the waves gets rough before calming down again
and i thought
"the waves represents my life
i was so lost in the roughness of life
then it became calm after i accepted Christ
and i am his hands
and i am willing to face the roughness of life in His name
doing what he wants me to
according to what he has plans for me"

after that i was at peace for a while
when i open my eyes after that
the first thing i saw was a red ball thing
at the edge of my sight, far away in the sea
it came from a boat
and in a distance, there is another boat
the red ball thing begins to float away from the first boat
in the direction of the other boat
while away from the first boat
it disappears several times and reappeared again
at the same pace, i thought i will reach the other boat already
but it took such a longer time than i had imagined
the other boat also seemed to be distancing from the red ball
finally
nearly 6 times longer than i expect
the red ball reaches the other boat
the vision i got was
"my life with Christ had just begun
and i would inevitably start to leave my home, my family, my comfort zone
and the road will be rough, rocky
and on the way i,we will sway away from him
keep in mind that we do not sway away completely
and always keep ourselves on track
keep God in our hearts
at times, we might feel that we reach our goal or accomplish something
but it is not our final destination
when we arrive at out final destination
we WILL know we are there"

Please acknowledge me

"Fresh, baby, new, just begin…."

I’ve been getting a lot of these comments lately

"There’s a long way to go, it is just the beginning of your journey, there are a lot more to learn"

Likewise

I must agree to all these, as I am everything mentioned

But I want to be so much more

I want to do so much more, to help, to share the burden

I want to learn so much more, to experience, to share the worries and joys

Insecurity, doubt or any other thing you may call me

Cause those are me

I keep feeling left out, incompetent, invincible

Shallow?

Maybe… just a bit… maybe a lot

I’m willing to spend the time to learn, to change, to help

For the time seems to be slipping away

So much time wasted

So much to do

Yet don’t have the effort to accomplish

Don’t have the time… exam… graduation…

It’s all so heavy….

But I will do my part to help

I’ll be praying for the right answer, the right choice, the guidance…

I just hope I don’t let anyone down…

And I hope I don't let Him down...

Solitary, the beginning and end

Solitary, the beginning and end

This week started off with rather low profile

Being sick is no fun at all

Climbing out of it without medication is the challenge

But I still stand on no medication

The flue took a toll on my shopping weekend

Manage to go at least a day

But didn’t get what I really wanted

I guess the second trip is needed

The hunt is on!!!

 

Came back to hostel to find friends in need

Is the festive season bringing people down?

Or is the time and phase where people have to go through for the new year?

The tasks and obstacles came before the coming of a dawn…

A sign perhaps?

Well delay the thunder queue

I was glad I manage to help them

In whatever way they found help in me

They all manage to get through their problems fast

I really hope I manage to help out

Either way

Congratulations on your breakthroughs

 

Well the coming of the new year was celebrated very nicely

Mix of concert, movie, bistro, relaxing, sharing and beach breeze

Hung out with a few friends

While kept in touch with others at the same time

Although the phone bill is costly

The down part is some of the sms didn’t got out

And I have to redo them

While balancing the fun

Though not liking it

Manage to grasp sometime for studies

So sad the fact my finals are coming

Note to self “TARC is bad at scheduling exams”

 

Haizz..

A new year has came

Resolutions anyone?

Hopes anyone?

Dreams anyone?

Plans anyone?