a new chapter, a new me ??

new environment, not too bad...

new lifestyle, can handle it...

a new me... might that be relinquished? or should it be continued....?

work life isnt half that bad. then again, its only the start of this life. guess there might be more installed down this road..

however, for this start ive adapted a new me, a new.... persona. not that bad one at that, but sometimes just feels the old me breaking through...

should the change remain? should i.... grow up ?

the first page of a new chapter

change is here again and yet to yield a side in which it should be, good or bad....

the new chapter , titled "adult life", "work life", "end of a 2-decade long status" or "new beginnings" describes this new change. However, each bears different meaning to the following pages, should the title describe the following story or is contrasts and surprise with a main twist define the suspense ??

learnt the thing today that combines the aspects of flow, form, structure and architecture today, helped balanced the change ^.^

RELATIVE

Interpretation is limited by the knowledge of oneself, and hence different to everyone

feelings are personal expressions, which is limited by the spectrum of emotions which we are opened to

can soul mates truly exist ?

can understanding, mutual understanding be achieved ??

Echo

Hello, hello
anybody out there?
'cause I don't hear a sound
alone, alone
I don't really know where the world is but I miss it now

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
like a fool at the top of my lungs
sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
but it's never enough
cause my echo, echo
is the only voice coming back
my shadow, shadow
is the only friend that I have

listen, listen
I would take a whisper if
that's all you have to give
but it isn't, isn't
you could come and save me
try to chase it crazy right out of my head


I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
like a fool at the top of my lungs
sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
but it's never enough
cause my echo, echo
is the only voice coming back
my shadow, shadow
is the only friend that I have

I don't wanna be down and
I just wanna feel alive and
get to see your face again but 'til then
Just my echo, my shadow
you're my only friend

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
like a fool at the top of my lungs
sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
but it's never enough
cause my echo, echo
oh my shadow, shadow

Nolens Volens, 无奈

It is hard some times to ignore this lack of option, grudging, willy-nilly "nolens volens" feeling or situation.

"Nolens volens", 无奈, in Chinese really explain various of situation when we are seriously at a lost. Situation or feeling of loneliness, lost, helpless, abandonment, hopeless can really pun us in a very unpleasant place.

Even when situations demands it, the right option sometimes seemed so difficult or worse, is impossible to be found or made.

No explanation, no rationalisation, no choice and no help at all....

Spices

love the smell of spices, individually, together in a bunch and cooked together. worst part is, i cant cook. scratch that. im lazy to clean up after the cooking. :P

if flings are fun, relationships are burdens

so.... test the water ??